You always make me feel conflicted about everything
Because if I don’t care anymore why does it still hurt
If I’ve decided this is more trouble than it’s worth
And that we can’t just make it work
Why does my heart still ache
And why do I still care about you
I already said I don't care so why do I still think about you
Every time I see hydrangeas or the color purple
Every time I try to say goodbye to memories I remember how I never meant to hurt you
I say I hate you all the time to shake it when you cross my mind
It’s better than crying when I remember how our fingers intertwined
And how your palm felt on mine
I wish I could forget how spending time distorted time
When an hour felt like minutes
Because now all I am is conflicted
If I don’t care, why do I still care?
My perception of reality feels broken
And I have no idea how to fix it
Because if I don’t care anymore why does it still hurt
If I’ve decided this is more trouble than it’s worth
And that we can’t just make it work
Why does my heart still ache
And why do I still care about you
I already said I don't care so why do I still think about you
Every time I see hydrangeas or the color purple
Every time I try to say goodbye to memories I remember how I never meant to hurt you
I say I hate you all the time to shake it when you cross my mind
It’s better than crying when I remember how our fingers intertwined
And how your palm felt on mine
I wish I could forget how spending time distorted time
When an hour felt like minutes
Because now all I am is conflicted
If I don’t care, why do I still care?
My perception of reality feels broken
And I have no idea how to fix it
