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strength in words
​
aiyanna shields, april 2026

I talk a lot

I find strength in words
My hands shake
My heart beats
Working harder than ever to give me strength
I  find fear in words
My hands shake
My heart beats
Working harder than ever to maintain my fear

I find calmness in words
My heart beats
My hands are steady
Calmly…
Working more smoothly than ever before

I find knowledge in words
My brain grows
My memory steady
Readily
It works more smoothly than rationally possible

I find strength in words. A strange concept I can't help but desire. I find strength in words. The things that I say and hear hold power over me like a puppeteer guiding their pet. Like a Mom managing her child and like a master honing their disciple. The words gallop through my mind, picking which emotion to display. It doesn’t decide, for it has many options.
My words are greedy, hogging a conversation, only stopping to listen, and responding readily. My words are always ready, don’t think they aren’t, as they never truly rest. Like wedding vows, through sickness and death, my words overcome. 

And surprisingly, my words outlive me. My words inspire those whom I’ve never met. They find strength in words. A skill, I unknowingly taught and a legacy, I maintain. Through life and death, my words hover, and my gravestone runs out of room.
 
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      • Stranger Things: Kill Your OCs
      • "Does He Know?": Do YOU Know Why Paul Dano Is So Great?
      • Creator vs. Creation: Mothers, Daughters, & The Generational Divide
      • The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes: How Snow Really Falls
      • Know Your Rights: What To Do Around Ice
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      • Am I not American Enough?
      • The Moonlight Behind The Blinds
      • Acceptance Letter
      • I WIsh I was Your Son
      • Due East
      • Once For The Moon
      • turn off the lights, close your eyes, and pretend i'm a real boy
      • Broken Nail
      • Midnight Confessions
      • The Pencil In My Hand Does Not Move
      • Chloropromazine Chapter 1
      • One
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      • TV SHOW REVIEW: Beastars
      • MOVIE REVIEW: Spider-Man: Brand New Day
      • SONG REVIEW: "Lover, You Should’ve Come Over"
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      • Boys Swim: Senior Highlight
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    • Teachers Corner: Ejzak: How to Combat chatGPT? Embrace the Same Anti-Authoritarian Teaching Practices We Should’ve Been Doing All Along
    • Teacher's Corner: Mr. Hazzard's Love Letter To Brooks
    • Teacher's Corner: Gordon
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      • Two
      • Young and Pretty
      • Chimeras: Growing Up in Majority-White and Majority-Black Schools
      • My Favorite Color Used To Be Pink
      • Good Mother
      • Cancel the Mouse: Why New Disney Sucks
      • Is Hope the New Punk Rock?: Superman Movie Review
    • 10.25 >
      • Ignorance Is PURE Bliss
      • The Subjectivity of Creativity: How Wrongful Interpretation is Dangerous
      • Petty Games
      • If You're So Wise, Why Do You Come Off So Passionless?
      • How Animal Farm by George Orwell Still Speaks Today
      • How To Train Your Hyper-Realistic Live Action Reboot
      • Absense of August
      • Art fight Collection
    • 11.25 >
      • The Overconsumption Cycle
      • My Experience Being Painfully Insecure.
      • An Age-Old Question
      • They Hate Us Cause They Ain't Us
      • Transgressions Against the Father
      • Watership Down
      • The Black Phone 2: More is Less
      • How Fish Became Gods
    • 1.26 >
      • The Concept of One Individual
      • Deathbot Chapter 3 Part 1
      • Deathbot Chapter 3 Part 2
      • Deathbot Chapter 4
      • Police & Black Americans—The Battle for Civil Rights
      • White Hair Braiders
      • The Dust Under My Bed
      • Popular (Wicked)
      • “Carpe Diem, Seize The Day.” - A Media Review On Dead Poets Society
      • They Could've Made Anything, but They Chose This Book
    • 2.26 >
      • The Only Thing More Powerful Than Hate is Love
      • Deathbott Chapter 5
      • Is it Possible to Separate Art From the Artist?
      • Take Things Seriously
      • Blood-Covered "Love"
      • Sunflower
      • Iron Lung Review
      • Night In the Woods Analysis: The Hole At The Center Of Everything
    • 3.26 >
      • My Beautiful Spring
      • I, Who Have Worn Many Faces
      • And I Wonder (Kanye West)
      • Danganronpa Trial 3's: They Suck
      • Deathbott Chapter 6
      • YOLO OR YËAT
      • It's time to start indulging
      • Anybody can be Spider-Man
      • Arrow Through The Chest
      • Creativity Is A Burden On The Creative
      • Dear Jane Doe
      • Invisible Thread
      • What Could I Be
      • Ramadan
      • Weather Boy
    • 4.26 >
      • Invisible
      • Strength in Words
      • If He Loved Me
      • The Pain That I Love
      • Love is Not For People Like Me
      • ULTRAKILL (Media Review)
      • Firebreak
      • Penny
      • Deathbott Chapter 7
      • 5 Misconceptions of Islam
      • Is Love Childish?