That doesn’t even sound real yet.
It feels weird saying it out loud,
like it belongs to someone older,
Someone who has everything figured out.
Next month is my last month here.
My last regular mornings,
My last walking through these halls,
My last random talks in class,
My last time seeing the same people
every single day without ever thinking about it.
I look at my friends differently now.
Like dang, this is ending.
No more everyday laughs,
no more seeing each other in the hallway,
no more “you doing the homework?”
ten minutes before class starts.
Somehow, they became my family,
in a fast and real way.
In the being there way.
In the always around way.
In knowing me as I grew up.
Home has always been different for me.
I'm used to not being attached
To the walls or to the people
So leaving home doesn’t hit quite the same
as leaving the family I've built.
But the one thing that scares me the most
is leaving the girl
who still has high school forever ahead of her.
Leaving the girl
who thought adulthood was far away.
Leaving the girl
who was still becoming herself
Wow, I’m really going to college…
I’m excited
I’m nervous
And I am terrified.
I’m standing between everything I’ve known
And everything that's about to know me.
It feels weird saying it out loud,
like it belongs to someone older,
Someone who has everything figured out.
Next month is my last month here.
My last regular mornings,
My last walking through these halls,
My last random talks in class,
My last time seeing the same people
every single day without ever thinking about it.
I look at my friends differently now.
Like dang, this is ending.
No more everyday laughs,
no more seeing each other in the hallway,
no more “you doing the homework?”
ten minutes before class starts.
Somehow, they became my family,
in a fast and real way.
In the being there way.
In the always around way.
In knowing me as I grew up.
Home has always been different for me.
I'm used to not being attached
To the walls or to the people
So leaving home doesn’t hit quite the same
as leaving the family I've built.
But the one thing that scares me the most
is leaving the girl
who still has high school forever ahead of her.
Leaving the girl
who thought adulthood was far away.
Leaving the girl
who was still becoming herself
Wow, I’m really going to college…
I’m excited
I’m nervous
And I am terrified.
I’m standing between everything I’ve known
And everything that's about to know me.
