I look in my reflection and I see her,
In the curve of my face
The hollows of my eyes
I lay in her same bed at night,
A line of questions wait at the door to my mind
Of how she felt, laying under these same blankets every night
How bitter our tears were
To burn permanent scars in our souls
I revolt when you call me by her name
To think, that you see her in me
And I see that hate fill your eyes,
Hate for her
Hate for me
Hate that I will be here
I feel her sorrow, her desire to leave
In the back of my mind
In every crevice of this house
In every room she occupied
I fill her dresser with my clothes
Open her closet to my shoes
And at the end of the day, I see her reflection staring back at me, in her mirror
Drowning me
Like an animal on a log
I wanted to cover it all
Surrounded in pain, I can't breathe
I want so badly to move on
Yes, I am safe here
While you worry about someone who is not
But while thinking of her
You forget about me
I'm still here
Can you not see me
Longing for your attention
I am still here
Look at me
I'm still fucking here, fading
See me
Take my pain
Take my eyes so I may not see
Take my legs so I may not walk through these walls
Take my lungs so I may not breathe this poison air
Take my heart so I may stop forcing it to beat
For you
Who will never appreciate it
Looking into the past
Yet leaving me there
The dried tears inside me turn rotten
They fester and mold and I hear your words, of how I should never be the one you confuse me for
The one you search for in me
The one that stares back at me in the river
I lower my gaze, and I will never lift it
My greatest revenge,
That you will never rest easy,
For every time you look at me
You will see her, reincarnated
That these blood stained tears will be the last thing I sacrifice for you
In the curve of my face
The hollows of my eyes
I lay in her same bed at night,
A line of questions wait at the door to my mind
Of how she felt, laying under these same blankets every night
How bitter our tears were
To burn permanent scars in our souls
I revolt when you call me by her name
To think, that you see her in me
And I see that hate fill your eyes,
Hate for her
Hate for me
Hate that I will be here
I feel her sorrow, her desire to leave
In the back of my mind
In every crevice of this house
In every room she occupied
I fill her dresser with my clothes
Open her closet to my shoes
And at the end of the day, I see her reflection staring back at me, in her mirror
Drowning me
Like an animal on a log
I wanted to cover it all
Surrounded in pain, I can't breathe
I want so badly to move on
Yes, I am safe here
While you worry about someone who is not
But while thinking of her
You forget about me
I'm still here
Can you not see me
Longing for your attention
I am still here
Look at me
I'm still fucking here, fading
See me
Take my pain
Take my eyes so I may not see
Take my legs so I may not walk through these walls
Take my lungs so I may not breathe this poison air
Take my heart so I may stop forcing it to beat
For you
Who will never appreciate it
Looking into the past
Yet leaving me there
The dried tears inside me turn rotten
They fester and mold and I hear your words, of how I should never be the one you confuse me for
The one you search for in me
The one that stares back at me in the river
I lower my gaze, and I will never lift it
My greatest revenge,
That you will never rest easy,
For every time you look at me
You will see her, reincarnated
That these blood stained tears will be the last thing I sacrifice for you