Author's Note: This poem is as special to me as the person that it’s about. I hold this piece to a certain standard that I don’t hold any of my other work. Maybe because I cried while writing it. Anyway, I hope you love this one as much as I do.
PT.1
To myself I promise I won’t shed another tear
To my heart I hold you near
My dear
It’s time for me to go
I know you’re enthused
Because I’m putting on my coat and my shoes
Heading out in the cold alone
I’m finally moving out of your head which I made a home
I was an unwanted guest and a pest
So I’m sorry
I’ll be gone by the morning
Finding someone new
But if I’m moving you have to too
So pack up your smile and your laugh
Your nose and your eyes
And walk out the door
That I’ve held open
Letting all the cold in
Inhaling you who is the breeze
Cold air in my lungs
I could barely breathe
But was still happy because you were the one suffocating me
I won’t write another poem or letter
This is my final goodbye
Because I know you’ve moved on and you’ve found another guy
I won’t lie it hurts
But what hurts a lot worse is having you here
So although I hold your memories tight to my chest
I wish you the best
I don’t love you any less
But it’s time for us to part.
PT.2
In the back of my mind I see visions of you
Visions of us making it far
Heading into the dark
Hand in hand
Simply creating spark
I’m trying to let these visions go
Along with the hopes of something more and you and I making it off the floor
Along the our journey apart I hope you find who you were looking for
I think we both were looking for someone who wasn’t there
I needed someone to care
And you didn’t need me to be that
I wanted you to see me
I wanted you to have my back
I made a version of you that didn’t exist
And expected you to be that
Our souls are incompatible
And I’ve almost always seen that
So maybe my pain is my fault
For not stopping at the red flags
For getting too ahead of myself
And getting myself too attached
But I’m really off you now
Unlike the other times I’ve relapsed
Should’ve stopped trying a long time ago
‘Cause now look at where we at
PT.1
To myself I promise I won’t shed another tear
To my heart I hold you near
My dear
It’s time for me to go
I know you’re enthused
Because I’m putting on my coat and my shoes
Heading out in the cold alone
I’m finally moving out of your head which I made a home
I was an unwanted guest and a pest
So I’m sorry
I’ll be gone by the morning
Finding someone new
But if I’m moving you have to too
So pack up your smile and your laugh
Your nose and your eyes
And walk out the door
That I’ve held open
Letting all the cold in
Inhaling you who is the breeze
Cold air in my lungs
I could barely breathe
But was still happy because you were the one suffocating me
I won’t write another poem or letter
This is my final goodbye
Because I know you’ve moved on and you’ve found another guy
I won’t lie it hurts
But what hurts a lot worse is having you here
So although I hold your memories tight to my chest
I wish you the best
I don’t love you any less
But it’s time for us to part.
PT.2
In the back of my mind I see visions of you
Visions of us making it far
Heading into the dark
Hand in hand
Simply creating spark
I’m trying to let these visions go
Along with the hopes of something more and you and I making it off the floor
Along the our journey apart I hope you find who you were looking for
I think we both were looking for someone who wasn’t there
I needed someone to care
And you didn’t need me to be that
I wanted you to see me
I wanted you to have my back
I made a version of you that didn’t exist
And expected you to be that
Our souls are incompatible
And I’ve almost always seen that
So maybe my pain is my fault
For not stopping at the red flags
For getting too ahead of myself
And getting myself too attached
But I’m really off you now
Unlike the other times I’ve relapsed
Should’ve stopped trying a long time ago
‘Cause now look at where we at
