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I listen to this album at least once or twice, maybe 3, 4 times every month, at least once a week if not once every two weeks. I live laugh love eat sleep breathe die this album because it’s just so good from the vocals to the instrumentals to the lyrics like everything about it is so complete and it kind of carries a general motif or theme throughout the album of like just pettiness and being bitter and not having control in a situation and it’s just a quintessential album for me. It has 10 songs and it’s 36 minute long, released in february of 2023 and it’s the sixth studio album by Paramore and they’re notorious rock band from the 2010s and they started in 2004 and they are enjoyed by a wide variety of people even though they’re classified as a rock band they make music in all genres and personally when I listen to it, I don’t think of it is rock. It’s kind of like rock papa adjacent, but Hayley Williams is notorious for her powerhouse vocals and her longevity with this band, from songs like All I Wanted, to the Twilight and Jennifer’s Body soundtracks, they are definitely some heavy hitters. I feel like it would help to listen to the album as you read (it’s fire truss and still socially relevant in most cases, the first 4 songs are singles btw) so yeah, here is my review!
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This Is Why
This song as an opener is Hayley toaking a bold stance and being like well im not gonna do anything for you like im not going to be a spectacle and perform for your if all im going to receive is criticism. it kind of elaborates on how she just doesn’t wanna leave her house because if she leaves her house, she’s going to be judged and she’s gonna be seen and viewed and expected to be a certain way which maybe that’s not something that she wants. and she wants to be left alone and she’s saying like if you have something to say keep it to yourself because I don’t wanna hear it like if you have some sort of criticism for me I could care less and so I’m gonna stay in my house to avoid that and it also goes on a deeper level to elaborate on how normal people will just criticize people from behind a screen, but so you don’t even have to go outside to be criticized or seeing or view or whatever the case may be that to feel this feeling of ostracism and loneliness in the world, you can still be viewed and judged and picked apart from the comfort of your home so why would I go outside and Hayley is basically saying that as a famous person these are the reasons why she doesn’t go outside because one she can get it from the comfort of her own home she can receive the criticism from the comfort of her own home and too if she goes outside, it’s gonna be 10 times worse and in her face the second she steps out her door in the pre-course she says one step beyond your door might as well have been a freefall. She’s saying that to emphasize how she’s falling into a pit of criticism, and she subjecting herself to spiraling basically and picking herself apart because everyone else is picking her apart, and there’s no escape wherever she goes, she’s going to be viewed and judged and picked apart and why would she subject herself to that when she can stay home? no matter what you do you can’t escape and you might as well stay inside where she can be safe and feel comfortable
This song as an opener is Hayley toaking a bold stance and being like well im not gonna do anything for you like im not going to be a spectacle and perform for your if all im going to receive is criticism. it kind of elaborates on how she just doesn’t wanna leave her house because if she leaves her house, she’s going to be judged and she’s gonna be seen and viewed and expected to be a certain way which maybe that’s not something that she wants. and she wants to be left alone and she’s saying like if you have something to say keep it to yourself because I don’t wanna hear it like if you have some sort of criticism for me I could care less and so I’m gonna stay in my house to avoid that and it also goes on a deeper level to elaborate on how normal people will just criticize people from behind a screen, but so you don’t even have to go outside to be criticized or seeing or view or whatever the case may be that to feel this feeling of ostracism and loneliness in the world, you can still be viewed and judged and picked apart from the comfort of your home so why would I go outside and Hayley is basically saying that as a famous person these are the reasons why she doesn’t go outside because one she can get it from the comfort of her own home she can receive the criticism from the comfort of her own home and too if she goes outside, it’s gonna be 10 times worse and in her face the second she steps out her door in the pre-course she says one step beyond your door might as well have been a freefall. She’s saying that to emphasize how she’s falling into a pit of criticism, and she subjecting herself to spiraling basically and picking herself apart because everyone else is picking her apart, and there’s no escape wherever she goes, she’s going to be viewed and judged and picked apart and why would she subject herself to that when she can stay home? no matter what you do you can’t escape and you might as well stay inside where she can be safe and feel comfortable
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The News
This song talks about both internal and external conflict throughout the war and within oneself and will not the war, but like just conflict around the world, whether it be war or just like turmoil or whatever the case may be, and it just talks about the constancy of danger and threats to society and how that affects both mentally and physically The second or third line in this song says war a war right behind my eyes right behind them just like a headache and when she says that she’s saying like this is so bothersome that and it’s affecting me so much that it’s painful because she can’t do anything about it and it’s constantly going on around her and it’s constantly going on internally. She’s at war with herself, but also the world is at war and there’s nothing she can do about it. There’s nothing she can do to resolve that conflict within herself because the conflict externally isn’t resolved. this was also released during the time of war in palestine* on the other side of the planet so as an American she’s like well what am I supposed to do cause I’m all the way over here and all these people are dying like and I can’t do anything about it because they’re on the other side of the world and I’m over here living my life while they’re over there suffering She’s stuck in a constant cycle of turning on and off the news because she wants to know what’s going on, but it’s so torturous to see those conditions and the way that they’re living that she just turns it off and then she turns it back on and turns it back off and that’s all she’s ever doing is watching the news, but there’s nothing ever good on the news that alleviate some of that darkness in the pain that she’s feeling because other people are living it. in the course she goes every second a collective heart breaks all together every single head shakes and this kind of plays unlike those commercials where they’re like every day 10 puppies get sent to the pound donate $.10 to the Humane Society of America and will save 30 puppies and it’s playing on how that pulls on your heart strings that ethos appeal that those commercials use and it’s just like they’re seeing the news and everyone’s heart breaks for those people who are going through those tragedies, but are they doing anything about it and then they shake their heads and just like passively just go oh that’s so terrible like oh my goodness I don’t know what I would do if that were me and then they just move on they’re just shaking their heads and they’re just disappointed and upset and in dismay, but are they doing anything about it though? In the next verse, she opens it by saying “far, I’m so far, from the front lines, quite the opposite. I’m safe inside” which reiterates her point that she's so far away, and she genuinely cannot do anything except worry and give money and feel useless behind the computer and that’s barely scratching the surface of her mind. It’s barely doing anything and that’s all that she ever thinks about. It’s so consuming of her thoughts and her physicality that she just can’t go on living life without telling people about what’s happening and educating people and teaching and donating what she can to try to alleviate some of the pain that they feel but she feels useless because all of her efforts are never going to do enough there’s nothing good in the news like everything is demoralizing and depressing and she’s just turning it on and off turning it on and off because she’s searching for something to be good for something to change, but everything is always the same and it’s always a depressive dark sad mood that’s constantly on the news then in the bridge, she goes exploitative performative informative, and we don’t know a half of it, which elaborates on how the news just exploits certain tactics and people just for the click battiness of it all, but they’re supposed to be unbiased and telling us the truth and half the time new sources only show one perspective whether it’s a liberal perspective or conservative perspective. They’re only showing one side of the coin and boosting this propaganda that infiltrates are new sources and that creates such by partisanship within our society not even just politically but socially, and she’s just elaborating on how we’re coming to the source to find the truth, unbiased and like trustworthy truth and it’s only showing us one side of the story where it’s only telling us what they think we want to hear and then she goes on to say rhetorical historical deplorable, and all along. We call it normal because this has become our norm to just accept what it is that we hear without that you were just blindly following what it is that they tell us because we’re expecting these sources to tell us the truth, but historically new sources have swayed one way or the other to try and gain a consensus on a certain idea, and the news still pushes that agenda today and uses propaganda to his advantage to undermine the people and they’re thinking and make them dumber essentially. |
Running Out Of Time
This song just talks about how selfish and consumed with their own lives. People are and how they don’t care about other people’s feelings. They’re just so focused on what’s important to them that they disregard how other people might feel. People are just so selfish in their actions and people always make the excuse that they “ran out of time” and that was the reason why they couldn’t do whatever it is that they committed to and the lack of backing up your commitment is the problem and Hayley is highlighting this through this song and explaining how she has been a victim of basically lying and saying that she ran out of time and making these excuses for her, so to justify such behavior, which is honestly kinda unacceptable. They’re just saying that they’re gonna do something but then they don’t follow up and then they’re just like “oh I’m sorry I ran out of time” like that’s just like the basic excuse that people default to which is shitty. intentions can only do so much for you like they only get you so far, which is what you said and just because you have the intention doesn’t mean you have the intention to actually executed it like the intention only gets you so far and you have to actually do something to assert that you actually care that you actually want to do it and if you don’t, you have to accept the fact that maybe you are just selfish and you don’t care about other people’s time and Hayley is kind of coming to terms with that as she realizes that she’s been making these excuses for herself for a long time. That's really like the cornerstone of our society is that we base our lives on isolationism and it really roots from Social Darwinist ideology, but especially in America we are hyper focused on every man for himself. Everyone has to survive on their own. Everyone has to figure out everyone is on their own and you got it. You have to fend for yourself essentially, and this really highlights how often that really happens in our society. People are so isolated and self-centered in our country and it’s just such a shame they don’t really care about what happens to this person or the next, and it sets us up for failure. She’s just constantly making excuses for herself just like “oh I couldn’t do it because I was tired” or “I couldn’t do it because you know this dad in the third”, but there’s genuinely no reason that she couldn’t do it. It’s just laziness and lack of commitment and accountability. That is just saying oh why you’re just justifying that behavior when you shouldn’t. She says it wouldn’t matter. It’s the ultimate alibi so it doesn’t matter the true reasoning behind it and then she goes on to say “there was a fire metaphorically, Be there in five hyperbolically” and saying this she’s just kind of lying all willy-nilly just to get out of whatever it is she said she would do that she made it to and she’s just telling these lies just to be like oh well it’s whatever I’ll be there. Don’t worry like I'm a good person like it’s something just came up and I can’t you know do what I said I do when I said I do it and these lies are just fueling that fire metaphorically. Even though it didn’t happen, she’s just openly lying to whoever she’s telling this to just because she’s trying to make it seem like she’s a better person than she really is and she’s trying to make it seem like she’s not selfish and she cares about your time when in reality she doesn’t. She also says that her watch is just for decoration, which proves that she has a lack of consideration for other people’s time because it’s just there to look cute. It’s not there for functionality the way that it’s supposed to be. Overall, it exhibits the lack of sympathy and consideration that people have for others and their time and their resources and how people’s moral conscience has been devalued overtime. She's just trying to justify to herself and make herself feel better about it and it’s hard to admit these things to yourself but eventually you do have to come to terms with it and try to be a better person. Everyone knows that you’re lying, but when will you admit it to yourself that you are lying?
This song just talks about how selfish and consumed with their own lives. People are and how they don’t care about other people’s feelings. They’re just so focused on what’s important to them that they disregard how other people might feel. People are just so selfish in their actions and people always make the excuse that they “ran out of time” and that was the reason why they couldn’t do whatever it is that they committed to and the lack of backing up your commitment is the problem and Hayley is highlighting this through this song and explaining how she has been a victim of basically lying and saying that she ran out of time and making these excuses for her, so to justify such behavior, which is honestly kinda unacceptable. They’re just saying that they’re gonna do something but then they don’t follow up and then they’re just like “oh I’m sorry I ran out of time” like that’s just like the basic excuse that people default to which is shitty. intentions can only do so much for you like they only get you so far, which is what you said and just because you have the intention doesn’t mean you have the intention to actually executed it like the intention only gets you so far and you have to actually do something to assert that you actually care that you actually want to do it and if you don’t, you have to accept the fact that maybe you are just selfish and you don’t care about other people’s time and Hayley is kind of coming to terms with that as she realizes that she’s been making these excuses for herself for a long time. That's really like the cornerstone of our society is that we base our lives on isolationism and it really roots from Social Darwinist ideology, but especially in America we are hyper focused on every man for himself. Everyone has to survive on their own. Everyone has to figure out everyone is on their own and you got it. You have to fend for yourself essentially, and this really highlights how often that really happens in our society. People are so isolated and self-centered in our country and it’s just such a shame they don’t really care about what happens to this person or the next, and it sets us up for failure. She’s just constantly making excuses for herself just like “oh I couldn’t do it because I was tired” or “I couldn’t do it because you know this dad in the third”, but there’s genuinely no reason that she couldn’t do it. It’s just laziness and lack of commitment and accountability. That is just saying oh why you’re just justifying that behavior when you shouldn’t. She says it wouldn’t matter. It’s the ultimate alibi so it doesn’t matter the true reasoning behind it and then she goes on to say “there was a fire metaphorically, Be there in five hyperbolically” and saying this she’s just kind of lying all willy-nilly just to get out of whatever it is she said she would do that she made it to and she’s just telling these lies just to be like oh well it’s whatever I’ll be there. Don’t worry like I'm a good person like it’s something just came up and I can’t you know do what I said I do when I said I do it and these lies are just fueling that fire metaphorically. Even though it didn’t happen, she’s just openly lying to whoever she’s telling this to just because she’s trying to make it seem like she’s a better person than she really is and she’s trying to make it seem like she’s not selfish and she cares about your time when in reality she doesn’t. She also says that her watch is just for decoration, which proves that she has a lack of consideration for other people’s time because it’s just there to look cute. It’s not there for functionality the way that it’s supposed to be. Overall, it exhibits the lack of sympathy and consideration that people have for others and their time and their resources and how people’s moral conscience has been devalued overtime. She's just trying to justify to herself and make herself feel better about it and it’s hard to admit these things to yourself but eventually you do have to come to terms with it and try to be a better person. Everyone knows that you’re lying, but when will you admit it to yourself that you are lying?
C'est Comme Ca
This means “Its Like That” Or “That's The Way It Is” in french and in the song she’s talking about how at least I think this is what she’s saying is that she’s just so bored and there’s nothing exciting or interesting about her life so that’s just the way it is like and she just has to live with that like she’s basically just rotting away because she’s so bored and she’s just listening to her thoughts and they’re boring her and she’s gonna run away and die because of how boring her life is the only thing that’s entertaining bro is her chiropractic appointment like that’s the only socialization that she gets in her life because she’s not doing anything else like she’s staying inside and just sitting around, listening to herself and wallowing in self-pity. she’s basically driving herself crazy being inside and focusing on herself and getting better and being a better person, but that’s boring prayer because basically she’s off all this stuff but she runs on spite and sweet revenge and those two things are kind of like her addiction and whatever her true addiction is if there is one is what fueled her and her being able to sit around and listen to herself thinking and just sit and do basically nothing all day is causing her to be like this is strange because I don’t know how to function without this fulfilling that need and revenge of coursing through her veins and her dependence on them and her dependent on her pettiness because that’s like the driving force of this album is her pettiness is what’s keeping her from getting better and progressing as a person and she says that like she acknowledges that she knows she’s regressing it. She’s not getting any better but she’s not doing anything about it. There’s nothing to entice her and she’s bored out of her mind all the time and because she’s been bored for so long. She’s thinking about her past and because she’s thinking about her past, she’s getting petty and she can’t get better if she’s stuck in the past because she can’t move on. because she’s an addict she wants to be unstable because that is what stability is to her being unstable is what she’s used to and she likes the feeling that it gives her so she’s trying to find something that gives her the same feeling that the instability does from the addiction if that makes sense it’s all that she knows and she can’t really move on from that one thing about the attic is they don’t wanna get better and they don’t wanna admit that there is a problem and they’re an attic because they’re going to keep doing the thing that makes them feel good. They’re not gonna try and seek help or find ways to better themselves without it being prompted to them they’re not gonna acknowledge and accept that they have a problem and she’s addicted to something but the pettiness in spite is what’s hindering her from being better and moving on and not having and fulfilling such an addiction. This anger and Fusión pettiness, and this constancy of it is what fuels her and it’s the only thing that gives her true fulfillment. She's so bored. She’s just like why would anybody wanna live like this and so she’s trying to find something to keep her from getting better so that she can keep getting that reward in supplying that need for instability.
This means “Its Like That” Or “That's The Way It Is” in french and in the song she’s talking about how at least I think this is what she’s saying is that she’s just so bored and there’s nothing exciting or interesting about her life so that’s just the way it is like and she just has to live with that like she’s basically just rotting away because she’s so bored and she’s just listening to her thoughts and they’re boring her and she’s gonna run away and die because of how boring her life is the only thing that’s entertaining bro is her chiropractic appointment like that’s the only socialization that she gets in her life because she’s not doing anything else like she’s staying inside and just sitting around, listening to herself and wallowing in self-pity. she’s basically driving herself crazy being inside and focusing on herself and getting better and being a better person, but that’s boring prayer because basically she’s off all this stuff but she runs on spite and sweet revenge and those two things are kind of like her addiction and whatever her true addiction is if there is one is what fueled her and her being able to sit around and listen to herself thinking and just sit and do basically nothing all day is causing her to be like this is strange because I don’t know how to function without this fulfilling that need and revenge of coursing through her veins and her dependence on them and her dependent on her pettiness because that’s like the driving force of this album is her pettiness is what’s keeping her from getting better and progressing as a person and she says that like she acknowledges that she knows she’s regressing it. She’s not getting any better but she’s not doing anything about it. There’s nothing to entice her and she’s bored out of her mind all the time and because she’s been bored for so long. She’s thinking about her past and because she’s thinking about her past, she’s getting petty and she can’t get better if she’s stuck in the past because she can’t move on. because she’s an addict she wants to be unstable because that is what stability is to her being unstable is what she’s used to and she likes the feeling that it gives her so she’s trying to find something that gives her the same feeling that the instability does from the addiction if that makes sense it’s all that she knows and she can’t really move on from that one thing about the attic is they don’t wanna get better and they don’t wanna admit that there is a problem and they’re an attic because they’re going to keep doing the thing that makes them feel good. They’re not gonna try and seek help or find ways to better themselves without it being prompted to them they’re not gonna acknowledge and accept that they have a problem and she’s addicted to something but the pettiness in spite is what’s hindering her from being better and moving on and not having and fulfilling such an addiction. This anger and Fusión pettiness, and this constancy of it is what fuels her and it’s the only thing that gives her true fulfillment. She's so bored. She’s just like why would anybody wanna live like this and so she’s trying to find something to keep her from getting better so that she can keep getting that reward in supplying that need for instability.
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Big Man, Little Dignity 🥉
Now this, this is my jam. The girls that get it get it. And the girls who don’t don’t. Nobody gets this so let me break it down for you. You’re probably not gonna get this album on first listen but this is when it starts getting real so you gotta lock it. OK I’m gonna break it down for you. OK, let’s go. So basically you see this guy from across the room. He's so gorgeous. He’s confident, he’s smart. He’s funny, he's beautiful and you know he’s got a way with words like he’s charismatic. He checks off all the boxes and so you’re just so enticed by this guy that you just can’t stop looking at him like you’re just so fixated on this man or whoever, maybe, I don’t judge, I don't discriminate and you see him, so stuck. You know that he could do anything he wants and get away with it because for one, he has pretty privileged and for two, he could probably work his way out of it because of his confidence and his his beauty and all of his other attributes, they’re all working together to let him get whatever it is that he wants in life. This man is just so enticing that he can do what he wants, right, then we get to the chorus and she says big man little dignity now when she says this, she’s breaking up the syllables to say that he needs to put that shrimp back in his fawkin pants (he has a little dick). She, I feel like, did this intentionally to make it sound that way and allude to how you can present to be this big macho man who’s so confident and gets everything he wants in this just like all-around perfect guy or whatever but on the inside, what do you have going for you? What do you have going for you, that can allow you to be so cocky and allow you to feel this good about yourself that you flaunt it everywhere you go. Like it’s tiny let’s be fr... but she’s saying like it’s obvious you don’t care and that you don’t have integrity. You couldn’t care less what happens to this person or the next and you act so high and mighty but you’re not you’re scum actually. |
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You First
In this song, she’s basically saying like me moving on and being a better person is not gonna happen. I’m gonna be petty. I’m gonna be spiteful and I’m gonna get my get back. One thing for sure and two things for certain: she's gonna hit you where it hurts. She’s giving away all of her energy and she’s just like here here here like give give give and the receiver is just like taking and they’re just not giving back like it’s just take there’s no push and pull within the relationship and she’s just understanding that they’re sucking up all of her energy and they’re just gonna keep coming back and taking her energy and feeding her negative energy without giving something valuable and meaningful the same way that she is to them. she feels bad but like that’s why she’s giving them everything that she has and all of her love and energy and what not, because she feels bad and she’s like well. You’re just doing your best, so why don’t I just help you out, but then it ends up backfiring because whenever she needs help she just gets robbed of that energy and love that she could’ve used for herself is now taken away from her and then it becomes futile. You have to give and take, she's saying like everybody is evil and everybody has at least a little bit of heinous energy in them, but you never know who’s going to be the worst and who’s going to have the most detrimental effect on you until you fuck around and find out. Everybody’s gonna get their karma everybody’s gonna get what’s coming to them but she hopes that karma comes for you first because of how dirty you did her. So something bad needs to happen to you immediately. Then, she says that in this horror movie of life and this relationship, this cycle of toxicity, she’s the killer and the final girl which is explaining how like she’s killing herself by putting herself into this self perpetuated cycle, but she’s also surviving each time and making it out. So what are you contributing if I’m the one doing the killing and the surviving in a horror film? What are you contributing to me that’s benefitting me in any sort of way? What sacrifices are you making? Are you putting yourself in front of the killer? Am I killing you or are you killing me or am I killing myself because I’m putting myself in this situation over and over? Do note that she never said she wasn’t petty. She’s telling you now that she knows she’s petty. She’s the queen of petty and she never said that she wasn’t so I don’t know why you would think that she isn’t because she’s going to get her get back and she’s going to be petty each and every time.
In this song, she’s basically saying like me moving on and being a better person is not gonna happen. I’m gonna be petty. I’m gonna be spiteful and I’m gonna get my get back. One thing for sure and two things for certain: she's gonna hit you where it hurts. She’s giving away all of her energy and she’s just like here here here like give give give and the receiver is just like taking and they’re just not giving back like it’s just take there’s no push and pull within the relationship and she’s just understanding that they’re sucking up all of her energy and they’re just gonna keep coming back and taking her energy and feeding her negative energy without giving something valuable and meaningful the same way that she is to them. she feels bad but like that’s why she’s giving them everything that she has and all of her love and energy and what not, because she feels bad and she’s like well. You’re just doing your best, so why don’t I just help you out, but then it ends up backfiring because whenever she needs help she just gets robbed of that energy and love that she could’ve used for herself is now taken away from her and then it becomes futile. You have to give and take, she's saying like everybody is evil and everybody has at least a little bit of heinous energy in them, but you never know who’s going to be the worst and who’s going to have the most detrimental effect on you until you fuck around and find out. Everybody’s gonna get their karma everybody’s gonna get what’s coming to them but she hopes that karma comes for you first because of how dirty you did her. So something bad needs to happen to you immediately. Then, she says that in this horror movie of life and this relationship, this cycle of toxicity, she’s the killer and the final girl which is explaining how like she’s killing herself by putting herself into this self perpetuated cycle, but she’s also surviving each time and making it out. So what are you contributing if I’m the one doing the killing and the surviving in a horror film? What are you contributing to me that’s benefitting me in any sort of way? What sacrifices are you making? Are you putting yourself in front of the killer? Am I killing you or are you killing me or am I killing myself because I’m putting myself in this situation over and over? Do note that she never said she wasn’t petty. She’s telling you now that she knows she’s petty. She’s the queen of petty and she never said that she wasn’t so I don’t know why you would think that she isn’t because she’s going to get her get back and she’s going to be petty each and every time.
Figure 8
People are just constantly sucking up all of her energy and now you got her mad. She’s at that stage of grief where and just so fed up where she’s just going to lash out and now she’s upset and once she starts, there’s no stopping so brace yourself. She has become something that she doesn’t want to be, for the sole purpose of satisfying someone else and their view of her. Now she’s contorted her idea of herself so much that she doesn’t know who she was and doesn’t know who she can be and she hates herself because she’s someone who is adapted to a perspective that they had of her, so she’s changing herself because she loves this person so much that she’s willing to make the sacrifice and hate herself, just so that they would love her back the way that she loved them. So now she’s trapped in this self perpetuated cycle of the figure 8. She’s stuck in the cycle and she doesn’t know how to get out and she’s contorted herself so much that she can’t even begin to conceptualize where she came from or where she’s going and so she’s in this figure 8 she doesn’t know how to revert back to who she was or change into something new. She's become wrapped up around this person which also could be symbolic of how the eight is wrapping around itself, but can also wrap around someone similarly to a lasso, but she’s just so stuck on being the ideal person for this guy. And now all this guy thinks that she’s weak because she had no backbone and she was just being whatever it is that he wanted her to be now he thinks that she’s weak and now she’s like well no that’s not the case. Just because I turned into something that you wanted and didn’t stand up for what I wanted, it doesn’t mean I’m weak. It just means I wanted you to see me in a specific way and now that’s over. Now that you're gone and I don’t know who I am, I have to build that back up and become who I am supposed to be, opposed to what you wanted me to be. At this point, there’s just no trace of who she used to be left and she’s stuck to deal with returning back to an original shape or something else that resembles what or who she was and breaking free of the cyclical nature of the figure eight and being wrapped around this person.
People are just constantly sucking up all of her energy and now you got her mad. She’s at that stage of grief where and just so fed up where she’s just going to lash out and now she’s upset and once she starts, there’s no stopping so brace yourself. She has become something that she doesn’t want to be, for the sole purpose of satisfying someone else and their view of her. Now she’s contorted her idea of herself so much that she doesn’t know who she was and doesn’t know who she can be and she hates herself because she’s someone who is adapted to a perspective that they had of her, so she’s changing herself because she loves this person so much that she’s willing to make the sacrifice and hate herself, just so that they would love her back the way that she loved them. So now she’s trapped in this self perpetuated cycle of the figure 8. She’s stuck in the cycle and she doesn’t know how to get out and she’s contorted herself so much that she can’t even begin to conceptualize where she came from or where she’s going and so she’s in this figure 8 she doesn’t know how to revert back to who she was or change into something new. She's become wrapped up around this person which also could be symbolic of how the eight is wrapping around itself, but can also wrap around someone similarly to a lasso, but she’s just so stuck on being the ideal person for this guy. And now all this guy thinks that she’s weak because she had no backbone and she was just being whatever it is that he wanted her to be now he thinks that she’s weak and now she’s like well no that’s not the case. Just because I turned into something that you wanted and didn’t stand up for what I wanted, it doesn’t mean I’m weak. It just means I wanted you to see me in a specific way and now that’s over. Now that you're gone and I don’t know who I am, I have to build that back up and become who I am supposed to be, opposed to what you wanted me to be. At this point, there’s just no trace of who she used to be left and she’s stuck to deal with returning back to an original shape or something else that resembles what or who she was and breaking free of the cyclical nature of the figure eight and being wrapped around this person.
Liar 🥈
so initially, she’s trying to figure out when she decided to start lying to her lover and what prompted her to start lying and she didn’t know how to tell them the truth and be herself initially but now she realizes that that’s what she should do and that’s all that she really can do and it’s the only way to protect her lover from herself and she’s saying and admitting that she is a liar, but it’s not that she needed to lie. It’s that she “wanted” to lie to protect herself from such vulnerability, and to protect you from changing your perception of who she really is. She knows that you know that she’s lying and she’s fighting herself even though she is aware that everyone knows what’s going on and it’s clear that she is lying. She’s fighting to try and protect that façade and her own emotions. and then she says the fall goes away, and she’s naked which alludes to the vulnerability and the cloud of lies that’s protecting her from having to be vulnerable and have those difficult conversations that she’s been dreading this whole time she’s formed these weapons against herself, and she’s dodging them and hiding in the cloud of this giant lie she’s made up to protect herself, even though she’s the one who’s harming herself and her lover. you can’t run from love and she is saying that you have to accept your fate when you know that you’re in love with someone and there’s truly no escaping it so you have to just admit it and not be ashamed and just love openly and proudly, but you can’t hide from it or run from it or try and diminish it. You have to just come to terms with it and navigate through it and she’s lying but she never needed to lie and she’s coming to the terms of lying to protect herself, but she’s expressing her truth now to show that she understands that her lover is going to accept her the way that she is regardless of what’s happened to her who she really is.
so initially, she’s trying to figure out when she decided to start lying to her lover and what prompted her to start lying and she didn’t know how to tell them the truth and be herself initially but now she realizes that that’s what she should do and that’s all that she really can do and it’s the only way to protect her lover from herself and she’s saying and admitting that she is a liar, but it’s not that she needed to lie. It’s that she “wanted” to lie to protect herself from such vulnerability, and to protect you from changing your perception of who she really is. She knows that you know that she’s lying and she’s fighting herself even though she is aware that everyone knows what’s going on and it’s clear that she is lying. She’s fighting to try and protect that façade and her own emotions. and then she says the fall goes away, and she’s naked which alludes to the vulnerability and the cloud of lies that’s protecting her from having to be vulnerable and have those difficult conversations that she’s been dreading this whole time she’s formed these weapons against herself, and she’s dodging them and hiding in the cloud of this giant lie she’s made up to protect herself, even though she’s the one who’s harming herself and her lover. you can’t run from love and she is saying that you have to accept your fate when you know that you’re in love with someone and there’s truly no escaping it so you have to just admit it and not be ashamed and just love openly and proudly, but you can’t hide from it or run from it or try and diminish it. You have to just come to terms with it and navigate through it and she’s lying but she never needed to lie and she’s coming to the terms of lying to protect herself, but she’s expressing her truth now to show that she understands that her lover is going to accept her the way that she is regardless of what’s happened to her who she really is.
Crave 🥇
she’s always focused on the next thing or the last thing but she’s never living presently in the moment she’s already in the future thinking about thinking back on the moment that she’s in right now rather than presently being in the moment and soaking up what it is that’s happening around her she’s already thinking about and fantasizing about how nice it’ll be to think about this constantly after it’s happened, and so she’s memorizing every little meticulous little thing and every little detail so that she can reminisce on it later when she can’t because she can’t just focus on it now she wants to save the moment, but she’s so stuck on reminiscing on the feeling and chasing the feeling she felt in the past and she focused on it so much that she’s focusing on the future and how it feels to reminisce on what’s presently the past in the future and because she’s chasing this feeling, she’s not soaking up what is going on around her currently and she’s so focused on moving on and then looking back rather than being in the moment and looking back because he knows that she’s going to have to use her memory to make it more appealing and make it seem better than it wasn’t looking at it through 20/20 vision and rose colored glasses in her memory in hindsight she’s treating the feeling like a drug and she just needs it over and over and over again and she’s constantly looking for her next fix of this nostalgia and longing and this overall feeling that she’s searching for. the line that gets me in this song I romanticize even the worst of times when all it took to make me cry, was being alive enough said. she’s reflecting on her past and she’s looking at herself looking at her reflection in the mirror, but she’s also looking at herself in the past tense and she saying that the pain that she felt then isn’t going to affect her now and the pain that she’s feeling in the moment is going to affect her now because she’s making it out to be so beautiful when in reality it was treacherous and she just has to focus on the positive rather than the negative and try and justify everything that she’s feeling in a beautiful light and repress those negative feelings that take over her mind she’s trying to be present and not chase after this feeling and focus on the moment that she’s in and to do that, she needs to ignore the pain that she feels from not seeking after that emotion she doesn’t want to change anything that’s happened because in the moment she’s probably like this sucks I hate this so much but if she changes it, her life will change ultimately and it’s somewhat canon that this has to happen to bring her to where she is now and otherwise it would be even worse and she wouldn’t be able to chase that feeling from the past and look forward to feeling it in the future. she feels all the parts of her life, somewhat merging together, and connecting into this cataclysmic serendipitous kind of moment in which she realizes that all the feelings that she feels now she will feel again whether that be happiness or sadness, her pain or anger she’s going to feel it again and she just has to focus on the emotion that she’s feeling now and being in touch with her emotions and in tune with what’s going on in the moment rather than focusing on trying to feel that emotion vicariously through another moment
she’s always focused on the next thing or the last thing but she’s never living presently in the moment she’s already in the future thinking about thinking back on the moment that she’s in right now rather than presently being in the moment and soaking up what it is that’s happening around her she’s already thinking about and fantasizing about how nice it’ll be to think about this constantly after it’s happened, and so she’s memorizing every little meticulous little thing and every little detail so that she can reminisce on it later when she can’t because she can’t just focus on it now she wants to save the moment, but she’s so stuck on reminiscing on the feeling and chasing the feeling she felt in the past and she focused on it so much that she’s focusing on the future and how it feels to reminisce on what’s presently the past in the future and because she’s chasing this feeling, she’s not soaking up what is going on around her currently and she’s so focused on moving on and then looking back rather than being in the moment and looking back because he knows that she’s going to have to use her memory to make it more appealing and make it seem better than it wasn’t looking at it through 20/20 vision and rose colored glasses in her memory in hindsight she’s treating the feeling like a drug and she just needs it over and over and over again and she’s constantly looking for her next fix of this nostalgia and longing and this overall feeling that she’s searching for. the line that gets me in this song I romanticize even the worst of times when all it took to make me cry, was being alive enough said. she’s reflecting on her past and she’s looking at herself looking at her reflection in the mirror, but she’s also looking at herself in the past tense and she saying that the pain that she felt then isn’t going to affect her now and the pain that she’s feeling in the moment is going to affect her now because she’s making it out to be so beautiful when in reality it was treacherous and she just has to focus on the positive rather than the negative and try and justify everything that she’s feeling in a beautiful light and repress those negative feelings that take over her mind she’s trying to be present and not chase after this feeling and focus on the moment that she’s in and to do that, she needs to ignore the pain that she feels from not seeking after that emotion she doesn’t want to change anything that’s happened because in the moment she’s probably like this sucks I hate this so much but if she changes it, her life will change ultimately and it’s somewhat canon that this has to happen to bring her to where she is now and otherwise it would be even worse and she wouldn’t be able to chase that feeling from the past and look forward to feeling it in the future. she feels all the parts of her life, somewhat merging together, and connecting into this cataclysmic serendipitous kind of moment in which she realizes that all the feelings that she feels now she will feel again whether that be happiness or sadness, her pain or anger she’s going to feel it again and she just has to focus on the emotion that she’s feeling now and being in touch with her emotions and in tune with what’s going on in the moment rather than focusing on trying to feel that emotion vicariously through another moment
Thick Skull
She’s basically always attracting some type of negativity and she never learned her lesson and she’s just being told over and over and over again and tortured by it over and over and over again, but she never wants to move on and get out of the situation and understand how it’s affecting her until she learns the same lesson that she’s been learning this whole time and she still ignores all the signs and everything that’s presented to her to tell her get out of this. This is not good for you. She's broken and she attracts broken people which breaks her even more and she’s trying to put them back together while she’s broken and then it looks like she broke them. When in reality they were broken already and now she’s even more broken because she couldn’t fix them. she’s kind of just stuck on auto pilot in the self perpetuating cycle per usual and she’s not doing anything about it. She’s just letting it happen and she wants somebody to wake her up and she’s like how many bodies are there dead now but she’s the captain and she doesn’t know the answer because she’s just going through life just complacently and just letting these things happen without understanding what’s really going on and how it’s actually affecting her and she wants someone to wake her up to help her understand, but the only person who can do that is herself, and so she has to finally hit her breaking point to understand what this means for her and how it’s affecting her she’s trying to find the answer and someone else from somewhere else, but the answers can only come from within her and she’s ignoring herself and trying to convince herself that this is what’s right for her when she knows that it’s wrong but she’s gonna keep doing it over and over again and putting herself in this cycle. She's just always learning the same lesson over and over again.
She’s basically always attracting some type of negativity and she never learned her lesson and she’s just being told over and over and over again and tortured by it over and over and over again, but she never wants to move on and get out of the situation and understand how it’s affecting her until she learns the same lesson that she’s been learning this whole time and she still ignores all the signs and everything that’s presented to her to tell her get out of this. This is not good for you. She's broken and she attracts broken people which breaks her even more and she’s trying to put them back together while she’s broken and then it looks like she broke them. When in reality they were broken already and now she’s even more broken because she couldn’t fix them. she’s kind of just stuck on auto pilot in the self perpetuating cycle per usual and she’s not doing anything about it. She’s just letting it happen and she wants somebody to wake her up and she’s like how many bodies are there dead now but she’s the captain and she doesn’t know the answer because she’s just going through life just complacently and just letting these things happen without understanding what’s really going on and how it’s actually affecting her and she wants someone to wake her up to help her understand, but the only person who can do that is herself, and so she has to finally hit her breaking point to understand what this means for her and how it’s affecting her she’s trying to find the answer and someone else from somewhere else, but the answers can only come from within her and she’s ignoring herself and trying to convince herself that this is what’s right for her when she knows that it’s wrong but she’s gonna keep doing it over and over again and putting herself in this cycle. She's just always learning the same lesson over and over again.
This album is just chef's kiss from the production to the vocals to the length. Everything about it is absolutely incredible. The visuals and the art and the concept of the album is just perfect from start to finish and it’s not too long, but it’s not too short and it doesn’t leave you feeling unsatisfied like it. It’s fulfilling for an album this short and the songs are cohesive and they work well together, but they also work well individually, and that’s what’s so beautiful about this album. It’s just beautiful.
