I like to isolate myself
It’s not really fun per se
It's more of a calming kinda thing
A coping skill, if you will
Sometimes, I’ll go for days, weeks,
And even months without talking to people genuinely.
It’s less of a thing I want to do
And more of a thing I just…do
I can open up for a minute to anyone who comes by
Be friendly to whoever wants a friend
But making friends on my own terms
Is a new skill I’m just beginning to learn
For such a long time, I was disconnected from what felt like the whole world
I let people just pick me, and I conceded without a second thought
In fact, I never thought.
But when I did, it was like a door to a whole different realm of possibilities opened up for me
And then the door shut cause that stuff was overwhelming
But now, my door opens from time to time
And I guess you can say it's progress?
Maybe one day,
My complicated social awkwardness won’t lead to isolation.
It’s not really fun per se
It's more of a calming kinda thing
A coping skill, if you will
Sometimes, I’ll go for days, weeks,
And even months without talking to people genuinely.
It’s less of a thing I want to do
And more of a thing I just…do
I can open up for a minute to anyone who comes by
Be friendly to whoever wants a friend
But making friends on my own terms
Is a new skill I’m just beginning to learn
For such a long time, I was disconnected from what felt like the whole world
I let people just pick me, and I conceded without a second thought
In fact, I never thought.
But when I did, it was like a door to a whole different realm of possibilities opened up for me
And then the door shut cause that stuff was overwhelming
But now, my door opens from time to time
And I guess you can say it's progress?
Maybe one day,
My complicated social awkwardness won’t lead to isolation.
Peyton Henderson-Howell
