Intentional or not I finally did it
I can finally forget it
Fill your absence with someone more fulfilling
Is this healing?
Whatever the feeling, it’s freeing
I’m seeing somebody else in the light that I once saw you in
Though you’ll always have a place in my heart
I’m looking somebody else in their eyes and seeing possibility
But I hope you remember me
In loving memory
Signing off with love that lasts so infinitely, Trey
This next part is an excerpt from my notes app that inspired the poem. It’s not long. If you want to read it you can.
i don’t know why letting go hurts finally. whenever i had to let go in the past it was out of necessity. it was bc the other person did something so inexcusable that going back was illogical. so it didn’t hurt. my sadness was covered by rage. because I couldn't feel anything but. not with you though. you hurt me. that’s true. but it was never enough to make me let go. or stop loving you. and now i’m making a conscious decision to let you go and i feel like a part of me is missing. and i feel so f***ing stupid for feeling this deeply about you when you never did for me. i don’t know why it hurts this bad. i don’t know why i’m crying. this is a good thing. letting you leave is a good thing. being without you is a good thing so why does it feel like this? why do i feel like sh*t? i hypothesize it’s because i know that once you’re gone the memories are too. and i can’t look at them and smile anymore. because it’s not good for me. i can feel my soul unraveling from yours and at first i felt free. i’m proud of myself. i felt the my heart be mine for the first time and i loved it. but if my heart is in my hands for once what do i do with it? it’s kinda sad that i don’t know what to do with my own heart. it’s even worse that i’m sad i’m finally over you.
I can finally forget it
Fill your absence with someone more fulfilling
Is this healing?
Whatever the feeling, it’s freeing
I’m seeing somebody else in the light that I once saw you in
Though you’ll always have a place in my heart
I’m looking somebody else in their eyes and seeing possibility
But I hope you remember me
In loving memory
Signing off with love that lasts so infinitely, Trey
This next part is an excerpt from my notes app that inspired the poem. It’s not long. If you want to read it you can.
i don’t know why letting go hurts finally. whenever i had to let go in the past it was out of necessity. it was bc the other person did something so inexcusable that going back was illogical. so it didn’t hurt. my sadness was covered by rage. because I couldn't feel anything but. not with you though. you hurt me. that’s true. but it was never enough to make me let go. or stop loving you. and now i’m making a conscious decision to let you go and i feel like a part of me is missing. and i feel so f***ing stupid for feeling this deeply about you when you never did for me. i don’t know why it hurts this bad. i don’t know why i’m crying. this is a good thing. letting you leave is a good thing. being without you is a good thing so why does it feel like this? why do i feel like sh*t? i hypothesize it’s because i know that once you’re gone the memories are too. and i can’t look at them and smile anymore. because it’s not good for me. i can feel my soul unraveling from yours and at first i felt free. i’m proud of myself. i felt the my heart be mine for the first time and i loved it. but if my heart is in my hands for once what do i do with it? it’s kinda sad that i don’t know what to do with my own heart. it’s even worse that i’m sad i’m finally over you.
trey sherrod
