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Hate this and i love you

kimora chin, january 2026

I woke up this morning and felt the weight of you on my chest
and the weight of your love
and mine and all the things I wouldn't say,
It felt like my heart might implode.
You smelled like grapes and wine,
and it felt like my heart might implode.
I've imagined how we'd look in the summer,
maybe you'd get tan, and I'd be blonde.
And my friends would see how much I smile at you
and be disgusted
But summer is a different time
I'll wake up tomorrow under a man
feeding me grapes and wine
One day, I will write about you and not feel so confused.

KIMORA CHIN

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      • The Words That Changed My Life: Part One
      • Police & Black Americans—The Battle for Civil Rights
      • White Hair Braiders
      • Ignorance is bliss, and open ignorance causes blisters
    • CREATIVE WRITING >
      • Tired Peppermints
      • Where I found Red Snow
      • my love is not unconditional.
      • What Happened? (Then and Now)
      • Popular (Wicked)
      • The Epitome of the Expression of Form
      • Approval
      • The Dust Under My Bed
      • Hate This And I Love You
    • Artist Corner >
      • Dog.
      • When you have a bat, everything looks like a ball.
      • Deathbott Character Art
    • Media Reviews >
      • “Carpe Diem, Seize The Day.” - A Media Review On Dead Poets Society
      • Welcome to Derry: Season 1
      • Sweet Home: Season One
      • The World Is Wonderfully Wicked
      • They Could've Made Anything, but They Chose This Book
      • The Amazing Digital Circus
      • Get Out: A Staple in Horror After Nearly a Decade
    • Sports Panel >
      • Boys Swim: Senior Highlight
      • Girls Swim: Senior Highlight
      • Girls Basketball: Senior Highlight
  • Featured Article
    • The Concept of One Individual
    • Know Your Rights: What To Do Around Ice
  • Teacher's Corner
    • Teachers Corner: DeVaul
    • Teachers Corner: Ejzak: How to Combat chatGPT? Embrace the Same Anti-Authoritarian Teaching Practices We Should’ve Been Doing All Along
    • Teacher's Corner: Mr. Hazzard's Love Letter To Brooks
    • Teacher's Corner: Gordon
    • Teacher's Corner: Wilde
    • Teacher's Corner: David
    • Teacher's Corner: Ejzak
    • Teacher's Corner: Rago
  • Archive
    • 9.25 >
      • Two
      • Young and Pretty
      • Chimeras: Growing Up in Majority-White and Majority-Black Schools
      • My Favorite Color Used To Be Pink
      • Good Mother
      • Cancel the Mouse: Why New Disney Sucks
      • Is Hope the New Punk Rock?: Superman Movie Review
    • 10.25 >
      • Ignorance Is PURE Bliss
      • The Subjectivity of Creativity: How Wrongful Interpretation is Dangerous
      • Petty Games
      • If You're So Wise, Why Do You Come Off So Passionless?
      • How Animal Farm by George Orwell Still Speaks Today
      • How To Train Your Hyper-Realistic Live Action Reboot
      • Absense of August
      • Art fight Collection
    • 11.25 >
      • The Overconsumption Cycle
      • My Experience Being Painfully Insecure.
      • An Age-Old Question
      • They Hate Us Cause They Ain't Us
      • Transgressions Against the Father
      • Watership Down
      • The Black Phone 2: More is Less
      • How Fish Became Gods