Brown doe eyes
Skin soft like lace
Daisy perfume
The sweetest torture I’ve ever seen
Dazzling, beautiful girl
And you sway like a swan
Graceful like a gazelle
Everything you touch blooms
The flower, mimicking the careful creation of God that you’re face is
Aren’t you the most charming thing to ever exist?
My jealous eyes travel, to everything about you
And disdain grows in me
Rotting my mind
“My beautiful girl”
How I wish I appalled you instead
How I wish you would hate me
To make your compliments sting less as they reach my withered hands
My stomach knots, when you come around and eyes shift
I disappear into the background
And there you stand, beautiful girl, attracting everyone
I try,
God knows I try,
To have your delicacy
The same innocent demeanor
The same angelic face
I poke, prod, and move every feature of myself
Wondering if they will change in front of me
“my beautiful girl” you call out
How I wish the words made me feel beautiful
But I hear the pity behind them, while you watch me in the mirror
Sucking in my stomach,
Widening my eyes,
Coloring my cheeks,
Fixing my shirt,
Brushing my hair
Yet, nothing changes
I still turn invisible when you appear
And I return to the drawing board
I change my clothes,
My hair,
More blush,
More mascara,
More lip gloss,
But envy and resentment still fester in my soul
As boys flock around you
As horrible thoughts enter my mind
How I wish she would leave
How I wish he would have never seen you
How I begged you never caught his eye
Maybe then I would have a chance
Perhaps, the beauty I fake would be enough to make him happy
“Beauty makes boys happy”
Soon, I look in the mirror and someone stares back at me
A face so done up, I don’t know who she is
Angrily, I take it all off,
I peel back my second skin
And lay there on the floor
Clutching my ribs as they shake violently
All that's left in the reflection is
The same girl who changed everything to be something else
Using every shade of lipstick to change
But it was all for nothing
It was all
Lipstick on a pig.
Skin soft like lace
Daisy perfume
The sweetest torture I’ve ever seen
Dazzling, beautiful girl
And you sway like a swan
Graceful like a gazelle
Everything you touch blooms
The flower, mimicking the careful creation of God that you’re face is
Aren’t you the most charming thing to ever exist?
My jealous eyes travel, to everything about you
And disdain grows in me
Rotting my mind
“My beautiful girl”
How I wish I appalled you instead
How I wish you would hate me
To make your compliments sting less as they reach my withered hands
My stomach knots, when you come around and eyes shift
I disappear into the background
And there you stand, beautiful girl, attracting everyone
I try,
God knows I try,
To have your delicacy
The same innocent demeanor
The same angelic face
I poke, prod, and move every feature of myself
Wondering if they will change in front of me
“my beautiful girl” you call out
How I wish the words made me feel beautiful
But I hear the pity behind them, while you watch me in the mirror
Sucking in my stomach,
Widening my eyes,
Coloring my cheeks,
Fixing my shirt,
Brushing my hair
Yet, nothing changes
I still turn invisible when you appear
And I return to the drawing board
I change my clothes,
My hair,
More blush,
More mascara,
More lip gloss,
But envy and resentment still fester in my soul
As boys flock around you
As horrible thoughts enter my mind
How I wish she would leave
How I wish he would have never seen you
How I begged you never caught his eye
Maybe then I would have a chance
Perhaps, the beauty I fake would be enough to make him happy
“Beauty makes boys happy”
Soon, I look in the mirror and someone stares back at me
A face so done up, I don’t know who she is
Angrily, I take it all off,
I peel back my second skin
And lay there on the floor
Clutching my ribs as they shake violently
All that's left in the reflection is
The same girl who changed everything to be something else
Using every shade of lipstick to change
But it was all for nothing
It was all
Lipstick on a pig.