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AntE meridiem

Julian Porter, November 2025

Running feels more natural when your eyes are closed, lying is easiest under pressure, and sucking it up is easier than letting it all out. The fundamental principles of truth are often concealed by the consequences of the disciple you are being lied to. The purpose of a message is to deliver meaning, yet we speak freely, as if we know the depth of our own tongues.

Once we fasten our lips and plunge our ears, they will teach me how to become free. 

What was once my soft spot, my Mount Everest, the hill I would die on, is now nothing but a screeching blight. The rooster that crows at Six Ante Meridiem, reduced and defiled to a haunting for the unrest that follows. The cushioning blasting lust, greed, and envy into the canvas that is the canals of my soul, now something I neither appreciate nor desire. Things of such I have once adorned, now become something of the fiction that is truth unbridled.
​

A monument carved into the shape of a bottom root, two curves, and a dip in the middle is more often found with a crater in its center, than it is whole, and red. And this sensation that is truth unbridled is whispered, and glutted with misconceptions and wretchedness. Once you’ve gone through the horrid slumber Post Meridiem, what was spoken without your discern is pressured and set to slam into your two front teeth, leaving you vulnerable for what was previously established as intemperate.

But, at some point, I should digress. To gouge out my own tongue and swallow it whole, displacing any further communications within the universal limbic system. Destroying its interconnectedness.
​
Once the yellow circle with that black check mark has been tapped, I doze off into thought of the intermittent light switch. For the memories I have fought to slaughter, the secrets I’ve pleaded to gut, the necessities that are my tangible possessions, they have been stripped of me. For the love of my life, I shall rest my case.

Julian Porter

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      • My Experience Being Painfully Insecure.
      • The Overconsumption Cycle
      • Know Your Rights: What To Do Around Ice
      • Every Season Has A Purpose
    • CREATIVE WRITING >
      • America’s Broken Mirror
      • 400 Lux
      • The boy who feels like Monday
      • Transgressions Against the Father
      • How Fish Become Gods
      • How Fish Become Gods Pt.2
      • Colors of The Wind
      • Friends Forever Not
      • written
      • Why I Spend so Much Time on Rooftops
      • I am from trees and flowers in autumn
      • I WONDER
      • Deathbot Chapter 2: Mellow Rain
      • stolen whispers
      • Puppets in Suits
      • They Hate Us Cause They Ain't Us
      • Heartbreak is a massacre.
      • affliction
      • Sides
      • I Refuse To Cry
      • The Silent Wonders of Time
      • Why So Serious?
      • The Painful Wonders of Space
      • Ante Meridiem
    • Artist Corner >
      • How Fish Became Gods
      • D&D Compilation
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      • Watership Down
      • The Black Phone 2: More is Less
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    • Teachers Corner: DeVaul
    • Teachers Corner: Ejzak: How to Combat chatGPT? Embrace the Same Anti-Authoritarian Teaching Practices We Should’ve Been Doing All Along
    • Teacher's Corner: Mr. Hazzard's Love Letter To Brooks
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      • Is Hope the New Punk Rock?: Superman Movie Review
      • Pretty in Pink
      • Cancel the Mouse: Why New Disney Sucks
      • Lampshade
      • Rose Garden
      • My Favorite Color Used To Be Pink
      • I'm Not a Writer: The Importance of Being Bad at Things
      • American Circus
      • Freedom Within The Soul
      • Watering Can
      • Are America’s Food Regulations Really Keeping Us Safe?
      • You!!
      • My Father's Son
      • Good Mother
      • Broken Mold
      • Young and Pretty
      • Pluto
      • Always.
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      • Deltarune: The "Real" Reality
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      • You Bring Out the Artist in Me
      • In Every Universe
      • We're All Racist
      • If You're So Wise, Why Do You Come Off So Passionless?
      • Alcoholism, Parasites, and Trauma in Weapons.
      • How Animal Farm by George Orwell Still Speaks Today
      • Back To The Beginning: The Summer I Turned Pretty Season 1 Review
      • Deathbot Chapter 1
      • Art fight Collection
      • 흑인들이 보낸 것입니다 (This Came From Black People)
      • How To Train Your Hyper-Realistic Live Action Reboot
      • Petty Games
      • The Diary of A Poet
      • Hatchetfield Trilogy Review
      • Guitar Object Study
      • Thunder
      • Lost and Never Found
      • God Bless America
      • Eviscerated
      • Masked
      • Those Girls
      • Why I Follow Jesus
      • The Subjectivity of Creativity: How Wrongful Interpretation is Dangerous
      • Stolen Whispers
      • Blood
      • Class of 2013