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400 lux

vanessa walston, november 2025

You’re my friend 
My close friend
My best friend.
Why can’t you love me the way I love you?
You are the friend I look at and appreciate.
You are a kind soul, and make me feel loved.
When I needed someone to talk to.
You were there for me.

…

Four years ago I may have felt this way
Now you feel like a distant memory 
I’d like it if you kept your promise to always be my best friend 
We’d put each other before boys
Wherever one went, the other followed
But now?
It feels like I’ve become the last thought In your mind
When your name is mentioned, it makes me sad
You were never the most amazing friend…but loneliness makes you appreciate any sort of affection
We grew up together
Made friends, and lost them together
When I think about it…
You knew me…
Or at least I created a version of you in my head that did.




VANESSA WALSTON

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      • My Experience Being Painfully Insecure.
      • The Overconsumption Cycle
      • Know Your Rights: What To Do Around Ice
      • Every Season Has A Purpose
    • CREATIVE WRITING >
      • America’s Broken Mirror
      • 400 Lux
      • The boy who feels like Monday
      • Transgressions Against the Father
      • How Fish Become Gods
      • How Fish Become Gods Pt.2
      • Colors of The Wind
      • Friends Forever Not
      • written
      • Why I Spend so Much Time on Rooftops
      • I am from trees and flowers in autumn
      • I WONDER
      • Deathbot Chapter 2: Mellow Rain
      • stolen whispers
      • Puppets in Suits
      • They Hate Us Cause They Ain't Us
      • Heartbreak is a massacre.
      • affliction
      • Sides
      • I Refuse To Cry
      • The Silent Wonders of Time
      • Why So Serious?
      • The Painful Wonders of Space
      • Ante Meridiem
    • Artist Corner >
      • How Fish Became Gods
      • D&D Compilation
    • Media Reviews >
      • Watership Down
      • The Black Phone 2: More is Less
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    • Know Your Rights: What To Do Around Ice
  • Teacher's Corner
    • Teachers Corner: DeVaul
    • Teachers Corner: Ejzak: How to Combat chatGPT? Embrace the Same Anti-Authoritarian Teaching Practices We Should’ve Been Doing All Along
    • Teacher's Corner: Mr. Hazzard's Love Letter To Brooks
    • Teacher's Corner: Gordon
    • Teacher's Corner: Wilde
    • Teacher's Corner: David
    • Teacher's Corner: Ejzak
    • Teacher's Corner: Rago
  • Archive
    • 9.25 >
      • In Another Universe
      • The Stars
      • Two
      • Europe Photos
      • Is Hope the New Punk Rock?: Superman Movie Review
      • Pretty in Pink
      • Cancel the Mouse: Why New Disney Sucks
      • Lampshade
      • Rose Garden
      • My Favorite Color Used To Be Pink
      • I'm Not a Writer: The Importance of Being Bad at Things
      • American Circus
      • Freedom Within The Soul
      • Watering Can
      • Are America’s Food Regulations Really Keeping Us Safe?
      • You!!
      • My Father's Son
      • Good Mother
      • Broken Mold
      • Young and Pretty
      • Pluto
      • Always.
      • A Talk About Illegals
      • Eyes
      • Woes of the Mediocre
      • Two Summers
      • "Are You Stupid?"
      • Chimeras: Growing Up in Majority-White and Majority-Black Schools
    • 10.25 >
      • Absense of August
      • Being fast is a disease
      • Why Won't You Listen To Me???
      • DayDreamer
      • The Nature of the Soul: A Brief Insight
      • Three of the LiB
      • I'm Not a Writer: Small Things to Live For in the Winter
      • Deltarune: The "Real" Reality
      • Perfectly Imperfect: Gilmore Girls Review
      • You Bring Out the Artist in Me
      • In Every Universe
      • We're All Racist
      • If You're So Wise, Why Do You Come Off So Passionless?
      • Alcoholism, Parasites, and Trauma in Weapons.
      • How Animal Farm by George Orwell Still Speaks Today
      • Back To The Beginning: The Summer I Turned Pretty Season 1 Review
      • Deathbot Chapter 1
      • Art fight Collection
      • 흑인들이 보낸 것입니다 (This Came From Black People)
      • How To Train Your Hyper-Realistic Live Action Reboot
      • Petty Games
      • The Diary of A Poet
      • Hatchetfield Trilogy Review
      • Guitar Object Study
      • Thunder
      • Lost and Never Found
      • God Bless America
      • Eviscerated
      • Masked
      • Those Girls
      • Why I Follow Jesus
      • The Subjectivity of Creativity: How Wrongful Interpretation is Dangerous
      • Stolen Whispers
      • Blood
      • Class of 2013