“18”

18 only a year away
18 almost here
18 is near
18 I’m ready for you to come
18 the reason for my freedom
18 reasons why I yearn for your presence
18 you're around the corner
But will things really change?
Will it make a difference?
Or am I destined for overall ruin
I think I am
I think I may
Because pain is the only part of life coming my way
18 come soon
18 come at noon
18 go away
18 What will I do?
18 million possibilities when you come
18 that will soon come
18 I will be set free
18 I can finally be me
18 It’s all up to me
18 What will I be?
18 Will I really be free?
18 hurts me
18 Are you really for me? 
18 Will I make it ?
18 Should I want to make it?
18 Will you be who I need you to be for me?
Because I need to be free
And I mean completely free
Free knowing I won't fall
Free, meaning I will have it all
Free, meaning I will be okay 
Free, meaning I get to choose what I wish and what I may
18 I choose who can stay
18 I choose to remove
18 I will never lose
18 shall I stay
18 will your blessings come my way
Or will it all remain the same
Never-ending torture, horrors, and pain

Aleya Payton